Flux

Wikipedia lists six different kinds of flux:

  1. Momentum flux
  2. Heat flux
  3. Chemical flux
  4. Volumetric flux
  5. Mass flux
  6. Radiative flux

Those are just the kinds of fluxes used in transport phenomena. There are other fluxes—for biology, medicine, electromagnetism. For every kind of movement, there is a kind of flux, I suppose.

I’m in psychological flux. Yesterday, I started a new job doing grant writing. I’m still working at my old job, too, until November. I’m floating between two offices (one which is not yet mine), trying to remember which deadline is for which job. All of this is actually good. I like to float.

My boss sent out an ad for the position I’m leaving. It seemed oddly like an obituary to me.

One of my favorite writers asked, “Does this mean you’re going to have to start dressing in ladies’ suits?”

I wasn’t looking for a new job. It just kind of landed right in front of me. I did agonize about leaving the magazine—I’ve made wonderful friends, had great opportunities to create my own path, and met some amazing people along the way. But intuitively I knew I had to do something different. I can’t tell you why. I can’t even say that this new job is the thing I’m supposed to be doing. But I’ve spent most of my life leaping before looking, and most of the time it has served me well.

I wonder if my impulsive nature has to do with my father’s penchant for throwing us kids into scary, thrilling situations—driving down the dark, winding road at night without the headlights on or purposely stalling the engine while flying over Lake Erie. Testing the flux of things.

2 Comments Flux

  1. Hetts September 11, 2007 at 3:39 pm

    I, personally, am weary of being fluxed to the limit. I yearn for a bit of continuity – nay – routine to replace the fluxed up way things have been.

    But that’s just me…

    I wish you great success with your new job. The land of development is a different beast, but not necessarily one that requires suits. Your use of the language will behoove you (yep, I said behoove) and will, I have no doubt, bring about great success.

    Keep up the good fight there in Pigspittle!

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  2. Meg September 17, 2007 at 7:06 pm

    Thanks, Monsieur Hetts! Yes, I bet you are weary of fluxiness.

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